Monday, April 25, 2005, 10:51 AM
GOOD STUFF.BAD STUFF.
Hmmx.Couple of things happened.Good stuff.Bad stuff.Dunno where to start off first.Guess I'll start wit the bad .Always seem better to hear some good stuff at the end to cheer up yer day =]
You tell a secret.Do you really want it kept mum or the whole wide world to know?Really.U wake up to find out that what you've confided in someone close to you,have been spilled out.The trust u put in,have been broken.Why is it time and time again you forgot bout the hurt and pain and misery that you experienced and start to trust someone again?Then you get played out.And Ahhhh.You remembered it all again that the world is THAT practical and you've been betrayed.You get so angry and pissed off with yourself.You question yourself.You question reality.How could you have been so bloody naive, stupid, blind, trusting, unseeing, unknowing?Having to find out bout things this way.Being the last to know.Isn't there a thing known as privacy anymore???The trust is broken.You get very hurt.And back into the hole you go again.This time,deeper in the hole you go.Wiser, but sadder.Not FULLY trusting anyone else saves you from disappointment, heartache, the feeling of betrayal, or any of those yucky, I-ate-a-tub-of-ben&jerry's ice-cream-and-gained-20 pounds-of miserable feelings. It also keeps you on the alert and teaches you not to let your guard down **sunday mornin before work..
One example.I confided in my clicks in my sem 1 class that I had a teeny weeny crush on Chuan.Only to find out next semester that he KNEW about it all along.**Someone(let's not name names) played me out.She spilled the beans to him in sem 1.Mary tot I knew that Chuan knows bout it.But hell no.I didn't.I only found out when I had a casual conversation wit Mary.You had no idea how I felt.Shocked.Hurt.Pissed.To think that I had been **someone's listening ear fer so long,dishing out advices to her,listen to her pour out her sorrows,trying to help her stand up.Only to find out she did that to me.But yeah.I tried to let the matter go.I'm not angry that he knows.I'm the LAST to find out?Its a bloody crush dammit.I didn't want him to know?!?!At least to me,crushes are nothing more than just a passing fad to me.Just..upset to be betrayed.
Been working at a outdoor wedding fair from Fri to Sun with Jerage.Usher job.All day and night.Pay's quite good.Made new friends with the other ushers.Nice people.Esp. Eunice,Ricco and Angeline.Clubby and fun people!I like =]Food(sux!3 same meals of rotting chai fan) provided.We had to wear jeans and black shirt.Hot.Very hot.Soo many mosquitoes bit us on the first day.So we bought mosquito coils and insect repellent the next day.Ahh.Saved from pests.Feet aches everyday.Took a peek at the fashion show.Pathetic.3 female models only.But yeah.checked out the people who came fer the fair.Oh my gawd.Sooo many beeeeeautiful wedges.*swoons*soo nice.damn.gonna get one pair soon.If Bangkok no nice ones,i'm gonna either buy in Spore/VS.Anyone? =]
Oh.I'm gng Bangkok with Steph&Jerage,Yannie and my family.Can't wait to see the trannies,get massages,be a shoppawhorelic and alcowhorelic!Click click!MORE photos!Ooh wee!
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